Peace, Be Still

3:30 am: my alarm goes off and I snooze for a few more minutes.

3:40am: shower, get ready, down a red bull.

4:15am: remember to take my nose ring out and get my stuff ready for another fun-filled day at clinicals.

5:00am: rush out the door



Somewhere between the rush of being a nursing student and the demands of every day, I get stuck.





I always listen to Pandora while getting ready on the Casting Crowns radio station. One of my favorite bands came on and I was not expecting to be so convicted. It was Rush of Fools "Peace Be Still."



I get so stressed out. I always feel like I am going to forget something stupid for clinicals and since, there aren't a whole lot of second chances in this program, be kicked out and lose everything I worked for.



One of the lines in this song that keeps repeating is Peace, Be Still. And know that I am God.



I wish I would remember this a little more often. My nature is to control things and I used to pray God would take away that desire. I guess I didn't think that to do that He would have to break me of that habit. And that could hurt.



My best friend, Abigail, who is always a source of encouragment and accountability, sends me Bible verses to start my day. This was yesterdays.



"Being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6



How blessed am I to have a God who is jealous for my time and energy AND lovingly changes my bad behavoirs?



I think it could be time for a run away day with God.


As I was writting this... this song came on. :)